Bipolar Chica's

I'm not gonna lie
I'll not be a gentleman
Behind the boathouse I'll show you my dark secret

I love my iPod. I told D it's the best present ever got me. I listen to it all day every day. I feel lost when it's not tethered to me. I was, after all, named after the saint of music. A little trivia for those who'd like to know my real name. Not that I go by it. I have a nickname.

Head under water and they tell me to breathe easy for a while
Breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me, but it's too soon to see

I start work tonight. I have butterflies in my stomach. It's been so long since I had to work--even if it is from the house. It's so weird. I think I'll take a Xanax before I go to meet my boss so I can calm the fuck down. My boss is someone I've known for a long time, but I haven't seen in a while. It'll be interesting to see how it goes. He sounds like he'll be an easy going boss. His mom was my old boss for years. I managed her Trade Secret Beauty supply store. I have no reason to be nervous, but I am.